If there was anything in my life that’s confused me more, it would have to be this, me and Faith. It’s like I’m so sure of this and so scared and so many things that I don’t know what to do. For a moment I’m almost frozen again but she kisses my lips so softly. I’m instantly melting again. Can it be so easy that one moment will cause an instant realization of something you just never noticed before? But when she touches me like this or even looks at me, it feels like I’m floating outside my body.

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I look at her, that’s all I can do right now. I can’t even speak because words seem so wrong right now. My body tingles as her thumb traces across my cheek, and a tear manages to fall from my eye as I squeeze it shut. Faith pulls me to her like she’s done so many times now. I press my body as close to hers as possible. Somehow I feel a little safer, comforted maybe. Something I’ve been looking for everywhere but here. My eyes close and the only thoughts I’m left with are of Faith.

 

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I wake up to the sun shinning brightly through the window. My legs are tangled with Faith’s; our arms are wrapped around each other, almost like we’re both afraid of the other leaving.

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“Hey B.’ Faith’s scratchy voice brings me out of my sleepy haze. I turn my head slightly up and she’s grinning.

 

‘Hey.’ I smile back at her. Her eyes glow with a carefree happiness that’s so rare to see in her. It makes her look so beautiful and young. Pushing myself up I straddle her body, my eyes locked with hers. ‘Tell me something.’

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‘Sure.’ Faith says as she reaches up pushing my hair behind my ear, her palm lingering on my cheek.

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‘How does something like this happen?’ I see the confusion in her eyes. ‘Can something this good just happen?’ She smiles and it slowly widens to a grin.

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‘Doesn’t really matter how it happened, cus I don’t give a shit how or why. It’s happened B, that’s all I care about.’ Faith pulls my face down and our lips meet softly at first. It begins to grow into a deep kiss, our tongues sliding across each others. When we finally break, we’re both left gasping. She looks up at me smiling softly. ‘I’ll go get us some food cus I’m starving here B.’ I grin back at her.

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‘Always hungry and horny huh?’

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‘You know me B.’ She grins back. I think I’m only beginning to know. She rolls us over; kisses me gently again then pulls away. I keep my eyes closed and try to imagine her lips are still on mine. I feel the coldness returning to my body. The unzipping of a bag grabs my attention and my eyes open again. My gaze lingers on the curve of Faith’s bare body as she bends over pulling clothes out of our bags. The light shows off the muscles that ripple under her skin as she moves. I can’t help but gulp and hold back the urge to run over to her. Faith turns around and throws some clothes at me.

‘Wouldn’t want you getting cold.’

 

She grins and starts pulling on her own clothes. I hesitate, pulling the sheets up to my chest. I’m almost embarrassed to change in front of her. I’ve suddenly become self conscious and even with what happened last night I can’t help it. Faith looks at me a moment then laughs a little to herself, turning her back to me. I slowly stand up, letting the sheet fall and the sun warm my skin. The room isn’t as cold as it was last night, but it’s still a little chilly making me shiver. I pull on my panties and my jeans first. Before I even have a chance to zip them I feel Faith wrap her arms around me from behind.

 

I lean back into her embrace as she bends her head and kisses my neck. One of her hands slides down my jeans, her fingers resting just under the hem of my panties. She squeezes one of my breasts with her other hand, her fingers are warm as she begins pulling at my nipple. I groan deep in my throat and push back against her more. I feel her wet lips on my ear as she whispers.

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‘You call the scoobs and get us some bus tickets. I’ll be back with some food and we’ll finish this.’ Her tongue flicks across my ear and her fingers roll my nipple between them. ‘You do want to finish this?’ I can only groan in response. ‘Good.’ Her body leaves me again, my skin burns where her hands were. The door opens and closes behind me. I fall against the bed groaning in frustration and staring up at the ceiling. She need  finish this now.

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The door opens again and slams shut. I roll over and look up at Faith standing there. ‘Food can wait a little bit longer, it’s not like I’m starving.’ I don’t know why she’s even talking. Rising up to my knees I smile as Faith starts stripping her clothes off walking towards me.

 

‘I don’t need food.’ I play along with her as she comes and wraps her arms around me.

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‘I don’t know how I even made it out the door.’ She says as we fall back against the bed.

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‘You took way too long.’ I grin. I start to pepper her face with kisses as I laugh. This feels too real to be a dream. Once again we melt into each other, and I get lost in her.

 

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The bus bumps along the dark road, I sigh adjusting myself trying to get comfortable. I look over at Faith, with her headphones on and head against the headrest, her mouth slightly open as she sleeps. Smiling I lean my head against her shoulder. Resting my hand on top of hers interlocking our fingers I squeeze her hand and she squeezes back.

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I wonder what everyone will say. They’ll probably be more than a little shocked. I don’t think they’ll care too much though. Can I say I love her? No, not yet at least. This is only the beginning of a lot of things. I’m not sure if I love her yet but I know what I feel is more than I have ever felt for someone before. I almost felt like this with Angel, but already this is much stronger. All these years have we just been wasting time? This is the right time, the years we’ve put behind us have made both of us stronger and wiser. Look at me all grown up and wise now. I wonder if my mom would be proud of everything I’ve done.

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I look down at our hands and smile. I can’t wait to spend everyday with Faith, the real Faith, my Faith.

 

 

The End