In the quiet hush of the night she whispers my name. Her lips touch softly on my skin, which even in this coldness is beginning to burn. I feel her hands move slowly across the expanses of my body. Like she’s trying to feel every part of me and every movement she makes is excruciatingly slow.

The sheets and quilt have fallen halfway down her back. All I can do is watch her almost in awe at the passion she is exuding. My heart beats faster and faster in my chest and my lungs struggle for air. She hasn’t done anything, yet she’s done so much. We’re both still in our bras and panties; Faith is just moving around mine.

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Her lips touch my skin softly, first at my own parched lips, then down my body. I gasp out her name as I feel them touch my neck. It’s so very light and soft and barley wet. Those little kisses make me shiver and I begin to hunger for more. Faith’s dark hair falls across my chest tickling me as she makes her way down to my stomach. Light kisses are placed around my navel, then my panty line. She continues to move down my body, kissing each of my thighs in turn. I feel like she’s worshipping me.

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She kisses the inside of my knee and moves down to my feet, kissing my arches and massaging her fingers deep into my muscles there. Tingling sensations race up my legs and I arch my back slightly. The blanket has been pushed back behind where she kneels at my feet. The cold air is rushing against my burning skin giving me a mixture of feelings to contend with.

I look down at Faith; her eyes are glowing back at me. She begins to slowly crawl back up my body, never once taking her eyes off mine.

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‘Faith.’ I breathe out her name.

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‘Shhhh.’ She whispers against my lips then slips her tongue into my mouth. I surge into her, seeking out her warmth. With one hand she reaches down and pulls the blanket back up over us, our lips never parting. I wrap my arms around her, pulling her down to me. The feel of her skin touching mine is more than I can handle. My mind begins to drift away, my thoughts becoming hazy.

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Faith’s hips press down into me, sliding slightly across the fabric of my panties creating the tiniest bit of friction. Her tongue slides across my bottom lip, leaving a trail of saliva in its wake. I flick out my own tongue, tasting what she left behind. She begins kissing slowly down my jaw, making her way to my neck where she lingers on my pulse point. I’m finally able to react, trailing my fingers across the skin on her neck. My eyes follow the path my fingers take. Faith moans quietly into my neck, the vibrations causing me to shiver.

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Our harsh breathing fills the heavy silence thats hanging in the room. The same silence that seemed so deafening outside. It’s like we’re locked away from everything, hidden away.

Faith lets me feel her and explore like she did. Just touching her hot skin is the most amazing thing ever. I never thought I could feel so much, to just touch her makes me feel like I’m witnessing something special. I don’t understand where all of this has come from. Why do I feel like if I lose her one more time, I’ll never be whole, and this thought scares me.

 

Wrapping my arms around her, I hug Faith against me. I’m afraid of the consequences of loving her. Squeezing my eyes closed I try not to cry. Faith rolls onto her back, pulling me with her and not letting go.

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‘It’s ok.’ She whispers in my ear.

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‘I’m afraid.’ I whisper back.

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‘I’m afraid too.’ She begins to rub my back slowly. ‘But I’m too afraid of not knowing. I need to find out. What do you need?’ I honestly don’t know what I need but I know what I want. It’s the intense feelings I get just thinking about her, thinking everyday things.

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‘I don’t’ know Faith. I think I want too much.’

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‘What do you mean B?

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‘It feels so intense.’

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‘I feel that too, fucking scares the shit outta me. I don’t do this, I don’t do the dating thing, but for some reason I want everything with you.’ How can she be so sure that this is right? ‘You don’t have to decide anything right now. We should get some sleep.’ She continues to rub my back slowly as my eyes drift closed. I can’t sleep, there’s too much to think about, I picture our future, me and her together. All I can see is us being happy, but this is Faith, I’m afraid of what she can do to me, good or not.