Title: I love You p.2
Rating: PG 13
Author: Justchicky2bme
Disclaimer: I do not own Buffy the Vampire Slayer (BtVS), nor any of the characters from it. I do not make any money from the writing of this story.
Notes: Well some of you wanted a sequal so here ya go. This is somewhat in my own little universe. I’m writing after have taken some meds for my head so I’m a little out of it, can’t even spell right. Tell me your thoughts please.
Buffy walked into her bedroom, shrugging her jacket off and collapsing on the bed. She felt glad the potentials had vacated her room to sleep elsewhere, she needed a place to be away from them. Faith had been late for their patrol, although it seemed pointless at this point. She wondered how soon the first would decide to descend upon her little ragtag crew. With the latest addition of Faith to the group, things were even more chaotic than usual. The feelings that were stirred up in her wake didn’t help Buffy concentrate any more on the problem at hand.
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She rubbed her face and turned her head to the side noticing the light had been left on. Just as she was about to turn it off she noticed a note with the letter B scrawled across the front. Sitting up she carefully grabbed the note and opened it. Buffy wasn’t sure how to react as her eyes ran across each word. It looked as if it was written hastily, maybe just a sloppy writer. Her hand came up to her mouth in surprise as she read the last words.
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‘I love you. Faith.’ What does this girl want from her? Is this some kind of game? Buffy’s mind raced with the consequences of what this would do. There had been a time, when they could have been something, there was something. Buffy had tried to help Faith but the dark slayer had turned against her. So many things had happened between them and so many things hadn’t. It is just like Faith to add more chaos and confusion to an already bad situation.
‘I love you.’ She mouthed these words as she read them over and over again. Buffy was trying to figure out Faith’s true intentions, but why would she use love as revenge? Dropping the note she rubbed her temples.
‘Okay, let’s say this is real, Faith really does love me.’ Buffy began to mull through the possibilities.
‘What am I supposed to say? Hey Faith, read the note, thanks but no thanks. No, how about, so Faith you love me, wow didn’t see that one coming, but with this whole apocalypse thing I’m not sure it’s gonna work out. Me and Faith, Faith and me, or is it I? I dunno I hated English. Why does she love me? I mean there’s always been this thing between us, this little charge I felt just by looking at her. We were good together. But that was along time ago before she went all dark and I put her into a coma, then there’s the whole body switching thing. Don’t forget she tried to kill everyone.
God Faith why do you have to do this to me? What am I supposed to do now? Maybe I should talk to her.’ Buffy fell back on the bed with a sigh of frustration as her mind continued to race. ‘I wonder what it would be like. I wonder if there is a different side to her that isn’t all rough and tough. I wonder what it would be like to kiss her. Shit I can’t believe I am actually considering this. It’s… it’s just wrong, I mean I’m a girl she’s a girl. Girl’s are Willows thing not mine. But then again, things haven’t worked out with any guy I’ve been with, things were never just right. But what if she hurts me again? Grrrrrrrrr! Now I’m not gonna get to sleep.
She just knows how to pick her moments. Buffy got up off her bed and headed down stairs. Maybe some ice cream would help, it usually does in these kind of situations. She crept through the house careful not to disturb anyone and into the kitchen.
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‘So B sneaking out?’ Faith said, she was sitting on a stool eating a rather large sandwich. Of course she’d be down here, why not.
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‘No just getting some snackage.’ Buffy tried not to avoid the girls eyes and make it obvious she was slightly uncomfortable.
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‘Have a seat. I have an extra one if you want.’ Faith offered her the other rather large sandwich. Buffy wasn’t sure what was in it, she wasn’t sure she wanted to know either. She accepted it anyway, hoping to stave off any conversation if her mouth had food in it. After a few moments of silence the brunette spoke up. ‘So B what’s up with you and uhh blond boy, heard you two got all hot and heavy.’ She looked up smirking at the blond.
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‘Like it’s any of your business.’ Buffy said. She took another bite of her sandwich, it was actually good. What exactly does Faith want from her? She sure wasn’t acting any different than normal.
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‘What ever gets you off. Personally I..’
‘What do you want?’ Buffy got tired of playing games with her.
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‘What do you mean?’ Now Faith avoided Buffy’s eyes and became engrossed in her sandwich.
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‘You know what I’m talking about, the note.’
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‘Look I shouldn’t have wrote that ok. Just forget about it and you can go on hating me ok. Be just like the good old days.’ Faith looked at her, a small glint of anger in her eyes.
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‘I don’t hate you Faith.’
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‘Whatever B, you can go on believing what you want but I know the truth, I’m not stupid.’
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“If you think I hate you so much why’d you write that?’
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‘It was stupid ok, a moment of stupidity, I shouldn’t have done it. Just forget about it.’ Faith got up to leave but Buffy grabbed her by the arm pulling her back.
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‘You can’t just tell me you love me then tell me to forget about it Faith.’
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‘I think I just did.’ Buffy held on to her arm tighter.
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‘When are you going to grow up Faith? I don’t hate you. It’s hard to forgive you yes, but I don’t hate you. I tried to help you, even when you almost choked Xander to death, I still believed I could help you. I wanted to help you so much, and you continued to hurt me.’
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‘You put me in a coma!’
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‘You gave me no choice, I didn’t want that, I didn’t want to hurt you but I had to stop you.’
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‘I’ve changed, I’ve been in jail and no one even bothered to tell me about this whole apocalypse shit and freaky guys trying to kill me. You never came and saw me once.’
‘I’m sorry Faith, I know I should have, but I was a little too busy.’
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‘Of course B, always saving the world.’
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‘Yes, that’s my job. A job you were supposed to do too. It’s hard Faith, doing this and sometimes feeling so alone even with my friends around me. We could have been something. You understood what it was like to be a slayer.’
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‘I still do.’
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‘Do you really? While you were trying to end the world I was always trying to keep it going, that’s what I’ve been doing for all these years. It’s hard to watch my friends get hurt. It was hard when I couldn’t save my mom. It was hard dying so Dawn wouldn’t and then coming back with this emptiness inside and hurting everyone I cared about.’ She stopped and they looked at each other.
‘Why now?’ She asked quietly.
‘It might be my last chance. I’ve been kicking myself in the ass for everything I’ve done wrong to you. I had to tell you or I’d never forgive myself. I had to find out if you felt the same.’
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‘Why would you think I felt the same?’
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‘Don’t deny it B, we had something. Dancing at the bronze, skipping school to be with me. Come on, don’t tell me you didn’t feel anything?’
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‘You know what I think I did, but right now……… I’m not sure either of us is ready for the consequences of an ‘us’.'
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‘What does that mean?’
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‘I don’t want to be hurt by you again.’ Buffy got up and walked out of the room and back to her bed. She left Faith to sit there in silence. Did she actually say those words to the brunette? How could she possibly have feelings for Faith, it’s just not right, in so many ways. Buffy thought a moment as she lay upon her bed curled up in a ball. Truthfully, she loved Faith too.